If you have been reading thus far, do not worry, I have not lost my peace. The good thing about peace is that it gives you lucidity, it gives you clarity.
Remember in chapter 4 when I said that people like me leave their “home” to the west pursuing some sort of restoration of dignity and dreams?! well, I feel really sad for those children of light. The “West” did not really live up to its potential. Two major things happened post COVID: GAZA and TRUMP.
I, by no means, can educate anyone on the horrors of Gaza and the absolute failure of humanity in preventing a full scale tiktoked genocide committed by the trash of the planet. But I can tell you how I experienced it in Europe.
When you are an immigrant in a country like France you will always get a specific treatment from the French. Specially those who identify as intellectuals or “activists”. They will always try to teach you something. They will even try to teach you about your own reality and your own human experience. I once had a debate with an individual where he was trying to convince me the Hijab is mandated by law in Egypt for example and he would not take it from an Egyptian that is actually not.
Gaza stripped those people naked, morally that is. Suddenly Monsieur and Madame Intellectuelles ran out of arguments to their fellow white man committing animalistic killing rituals against a not very fellow brown man. I could sense their cognitive dissonance and I saw them suffering between their inner moral code and their racist core and oh baby, I loved it.
I met three kinds of people in this crisis: the “c’est tres complique” people, the “mais pour quoi ils ne peuvent pas co-exister” people and of course the “we will march to free the Palestinians” people.
The “it is complicated” are the worst. They chose moral complacency, so I discard them entirely. The victim blaming people asking for peaceful co-existence in a situation like Palestine are usually far right idiots whose brain are suffering from visible rot. The third are the most difficult to deal with.
Most of my friends turned into white saviours. Some of them honestly thought that if they, personally, get involved surely the conflict will be resolved and in favour of the Palestinians.
Of course when you are at peace with the reality of the rotten world order it was not a surprise to me to see the decay of the western civilisation. They keep trying to pin this decay on us, the immigrants, but what Gaza and Trump did was stripping them naked to their own mirror of decay and they did not like what they saw. Welcome to the club, baby. Take a seat beside your brothers and sisters of colour and maybe one day we bring it all down and start over.
On the Search for Home 