Dancing on The Edge

I do not know why but I went back. The intrigue of that other world I discovered within my mind is irresistible. I have engaged in a pattern that would resemble a “weekend getaway trip” whenever I felt I need to retreat inwards. DMT is too strong for this so I shifted my recreational weekend trip to LSD. The beauty of LSD is that it is much gentler and it stays long enough to play with. I can perfectly control how far I want to go in my trip, unlike DMT that forcefully shoots me to him, my odd friend.

I remember the first time I used LSD after my DMT experience because it was not the same as prior to the DMT experience. Something happened in my brain and now it processes LSD very differently. First I dissociate, then I lose sense of body, time and place. When I shut my eyes I go there, to the edge. I can see the two worlds very clearly and I go between them with ease. I see my odd friend but for some reason we do not interact, not at all. This is a puzzle I still need to solve.

I feel a strange sensation of peace and warmth in the “nothing” world. My friends are concerned that one day I will go there and I will never come back. This scares me too, not to be there, but to lose control. For now, I will keep dancing on the edge.